I have no where to turn. I don't even know if this is appropriate, but I find myself looking to drugs and alcohol to cope. I need help and I have none. So here I am.

I met a guy online 3 years ago. It's been on and off since then. Even during the offs he was there to support me when I needed him.

He disappeared two days ago. He hasn't logged on. He never does that. He never doesn't login. He tells me when he's going to be unavailable. He doesn't just disappear.

People think because it's online it doesn't count. I'm terrified that something bad has happened to him. I'm falling apart and there's nothing I can do.