I hate Facebook so much all my family with there happy lives.today my cousin posted a video of his one year old daughter.he's younger than me and seems so happy with his daughter.I wish I had a child but I can't take care of myself I think of suicide constantly. The things in the past I thought would make me happy don't make me happy I'm just miserable maybe a child would not make me happy. Still I look at my cousin doing it with ease and I think I could do that just give me a chance Lord and I'd be a good mother.and with my sister about to get married I know baby comes next usually and I am miserable that the same is not possible for me there will never be a mini me running around happily cause I can't Stop hurting myself. And even if I could who'd give me a child.my boyfriend whose been in jail a dozen times and I don't love.that would be using him and I'm not that type of person even if I did want a child badly enough. It would. Have to be right.

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