It's great to be brave enough to say all the difficult things on the phone! That must help a lot...
You post makes me realize that when we are on the phone I can't help being like everything's great..., very enthusiastic, etc... which makes it awkward as she calls me back usually because i've sent an email saying how down I feel or very anxious,etc...
So I'd be supposed to say what I really feel but I can't so I end up saying "actually I'm ok, I didn't really need a call, sorry..." cause it must sound like I'm not the same person who has sent the email.... I probably don't want to sound like "I need you" or appear vulnerable...which is a pity as part of me would like to let T know that...