I'm afraid to take a benzo again. They don't just reduce anxiety, they actually make you feel good. But I might never be able to take the stairs alone again and I have to for all the stuff I have to do. So I'm thinking I'll see whether taking one makes me able to get down the stairs (and up). If it does, then I can use it only on days I have to go out. If not I can put it away for disaster/emergency situations.

God knows I can never get addicted again because I almost died getting off them in 2013. So no daily use, no general prn - unless in case of bereavement. I don't even like the look of that awful word. Only for the stairs.