Hello So leigheas: Well... pegasus is correct. But I know what you mean. I lead a pretty-much solitary lifestyle at this point. I'm married. But otherwise I have no family or friends, by choice. Still... I do something similar to what you describe. My wife is SO patient! And I honestly try to be good to her. But I have so much frustration & anger bottled up inside me that I'm constantly messing things up... sometimes just a little... sometimes a lot! And then, afterward, I just feel like a complete waste of skin... even more-so than usual! I know I'm just human & I should try to forgive myself. But, at this point, it's hard...