Today has been a good day and the first one in a few that I am feeling ok and not obsessing like I was..or whatever you want to call it. He's gone and I knew that already...sort of got my hopes up a little that he might come back...but honestly, it would be best if he didn't. I'm off the roller coaster and I'm not getting back in line for another ride. Let's hope I can keep this up. I have other things to focus my attention on that are more important than some guy I didn't see often and would rarely call, only text with me.
He's not worth the mental/emotional energy I have given him. Cause he certainly didn't give me any. I"ll be ok, I have been through worse things than this

I wanted to mention, I journal a lot and that has been one thing that has helped me gain perspective, to read what I have written over time. I actually had cut him off back in April for a week because I just wasn't comfortable with how things seemed to be going...however, I found myself missing him so we made up and continued the 'relationship'. I should have left it alone the first time.