We were together on and off for about 3 years. The only reason we were ever "off" is because my mom found out about us and did a lot to keep us apart. I was very much still in love when we (well she) decided that I needed to either choose her or my mom. I felt like my mom would reject me for that lifestyle (although I have learned that she would never rejected me even if she diagreed with me). I still wonder about what would have become of us if we had stayed together. But, I do love my my life now.