Thanks... I really ought to call a crisis line. I'm sinking ever faster into isolation & dispair and didn't remember to keep a life jacket. I just don't know what I'd tell them. I'm terrible talking on the phone even to my (former) T or minister. I want to connect in the chat rooms but i have to install the java update.... I don't want a crisis line to know who I am or think something troubling and send someone to my place.

until later...

I really like the little lambs in your picture =) they make me smile.
Kiya