Slipping back into an agitated depression, ugh hate theses kinds of depressions. Too much energy, yet no energy to do anything other than shower (showering is a compulsion for me, the only reason I bother to shower) and eat a little but. Just stare.blankly.at the walls in my room, barely getting out of bed. Up all night and sleep all day, I hate it...Ugh I really wish the depression would go away, but it's only going To get worse due to my Grandpa death last Sunday, it's been one week and I can't adjust to him being gone... Right now just listening to music to hopefully make me tired enough to fall asleep.