I was thinking a lot about how I took my friend's words and I can see now how some people could be in this way but how about me, perhaps it's me the one who have to change my way to deal with people and the way I see the reality, even when it was only for my own well-being. That is, I was doing some self-criticism.

I don't consider myself better than other people, just the opposite, I don't stop flagelating myself. Perhaps because of my perfectionism. Only that I'm too much sensitive. Indeed, I'm being awared now that I also have a hidden agenda. In the sense that I'm expecting people being as I would like they were. I'm struggling because they are not or don't see them as I would like.
Always having a perfect ideal idea of how I have to be and how the world has to be.
I'm understanding now that my sensitiviness is a way to play the role of the victim, poor me...the world is not how it must be....I'm not as I would like to be.
I have such a level of not acceptance.
This not acceptance of myself and the world around me is what leads me to take in many behaviours from others that I don't like and that hurt myself. I liked to think that I was doing a comprehension of others but I think what I do is to justify and take things in a exercise to get approval from others. My narcissist wound can't take others think bad about me or disappoint me, because I need them in some way, because I don't like myself...I take things I don't like and let others behaviours and beliefs disturbe my peace.