Well today is weird hubby has been on meds for 1 week and although I am not expecting miracles I kind of feel deflated and lost. Yes there is a great sense of relief that he is finally prepared to except that how he feels has something to do with him and not my fault but I feel distant and fed up with a real desire to run away. To be honest I just think I've given up on it ever being any different as I I don't know if I have the energy to get counselling etc. I just don't want to open a whole can of worms that will mean me having to change stuff too. This may sound rambling and confused well thats because I am I have got so used to living under the same roof as someone I just don't communicate with that the idea of trying to change it feels like too much hard work ! ;o(

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