I really feel like i'm losing my mind and my biggest fear is dying. I've had who knows what kind of mental health problems for the past 6 months - only 6 months. Went from perfect to neurotic seemingly overnight. I've tried 15 drugs in 5 months and now my physical health is rapidly deteriorating. I'm having massive panic attacks, manic depression, anxiety disorder, mood swings. I'm either crying, angry or confused. My mental health benefits have run out, there are NO free clinics in my state, I am on a waiting list for a reduced fee clinic with more than a year wait and now my health is suffereing. I was admitted to the hospital for 6 days of pneumonia - they discharged me last wednesday and i've had massive asthma attacks every day since - going to ER by ambulance. I'm a single mother, have not gone to work in a month and have no family or friends to support me. I feel so hopeless and terrified, I just dont know what to do. The psych doctor will NOT see me unless I have the money to pay at the time of visit, but it does not matter, my insurance wont pay for any more meds and I cant afford them. Not to mention, there are none left to try. Hopeless and scared.