Slept good last night. Self-hating fragment is certainly present today but I'm not depressed enough to do anything. Trying to focus at work but having a hard time since it's just me and my dog here. I want to work and be productive (I'm a grad student) but it's like I fear success, whereas being a ****-up is comfortable and known. I think I'm feeling like I'm more in a mindset to work on articles and datasets, but there is this barrier still.