Went out to the store.with my Grandma, only bought what I needed, yay no impulse.spending, mostly cause she was.with me so I couldn't. Feeling really energetic and restless right now, was really agitated and depressed this morning, still am agitated and depressed. Idk what is going on, agitated depression or mixed episode, I really don't know. Bought some sleep aids to hopefully calm me down and help me sleep a bit, I doubt I'll get much sleep, but it's worth a shot to try them again, *trigger warning* as long as I don't try ODing on them again (did.that twice). But at least my Grandma and I talked, we talked.about my Grandpa and memories about him. I told.her about me getting lectured in therapy and about my paranoia about my one uncle trying to.steal my Grandpa ashes (he threatened to do that) my mind is all over the place with this, I'm afraid it'll turn violent, and he'll.try killing everyone (yeah I may be a bit paranoid). I actually ate for once too a salad.and ice cream... Just laying down right now waiting for my launch to dry and these sleeping pills to.kick in and calm me.down a bit...