I fear that people will talk to me or hang out with me out of obligation. Not because they want to, but because they feel like they have to either because they feel sorry for me or for some other social obligation, or even out of boredom. As weird as it sounds, I fear people being around me out of obligation more than I fear rejection. I actually rather be rejected because at least the person is being honest.

Rejection hurts, but at least the person is letting you know they don't want to talk to me, or at the very least, be okay with talking to me but not wanting to be friends. Feeling obligated, on the other hand, they could be secretly wishing they were not with me without my knowledge. I've had past experiences like this where people have hung out with me or invited me out of obligation, only to find out later that I was never wanted around and they were just being polite.

One person way back even got extremely mad at me because while I was trying to build a friendship, she secretly wanted nothing to do with me but she pretended to be my friend. Eventually she snapped and called me a clingy person and creepy since she thought I couldn't take a hint, when in fact, I thought she actually liked me. It was my fault I didn't notice the signs, but I still wish she had said something. I am now way more cautious when meeting new people.

Ever since those incidents happened, I am extremely anxious that people are secretly not wanting to be around me and are brewing with resentment inside themselves since they may be feeling trapped. I go as far now as to constantly watch out for signs of someone feeling trapped or not wanting to be with me. Maybe it is dumb but if I see someone acting the same way as one of those people in the past did, I immediately back off since I feel like they may be wishing I would leave them alone.