i am having a hell of a time... its really bad. i dont want to go on. i went to work bu ti dont even know why. i kept asking myself" why am i even going here ? it doesnt matter" i got there and immediately wanted to leave. i was trying so hard to not cry in front of my coworkers. they alreaday thinkk i am weird enough. i told myself i will just work this shift nad go home and do it. well im home now. i texted my T for support... i had also called him before i wen tto work. he texted me some then stopped when he asked what i have eaten today and discovered that it hasnt been much of anything. i figured he was roling his eyes saying wow F it. which is how i felt. he called me around 10pm. we talkeds ome, i walked around th eparking lot. i cried a little. i felt stupid. he kept saying it will pass, it will pass. go home and take a prn and ur meds and go to bed, ill talk to u in the morning. i said ok i gotta go .he texted a few min after "i care about you very much, this will pass" well i am home now... i have a headache and i feel so terrible. i dont even know what i am waiting for. what is T gonna do?? im always going to end up here...in this state. i am so tired. im sorry for unloading here... i just ... whatever