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Originally Posted by sophiesmom Straight up question: Do you know that people here are complimenting you?

I do... and I sincerely appreciate and have tried to acknowledge the praise, as I've given many thanks and hugs. That said, I don't want it to look like I'm fishing for compliments... as that's definitely not what I'm doing here. I don't think it's healthy (both from the standpoint of self-esteem, and interacting with others) to think good of yourself based solely on the externa to prop yourself up. That ultimately has to come from within.

I'm not here to feel good about myself. I'm here to find the means to posses/convey enough worth to qualify for love (or at least pre-qualify to at least date and fail at trying to find it)... and in Maslowian fashion, find actualization that way. I want to fix my relationship with the world... not pad my feelings against it so I can feel "okay" about being isolated and alone. It's not okay. Humans are not meant to live that way. We're social creatures.




I don't quite understand what it is I'm trying to obfuscate on my prof, and how or where I'm going about it? My apologies if I'm confused. Clarify, please.