Woke up second guessing my decision to start taking gabapentin. I started after seeing the worry in my spouses eyes about my anxiety. I had also listened to him a long while about how my attempt had affected him. Feel like I have to stay strong/not show my family any signs of anxiety or depression. The gabapentin makes me less anxious/sleep better but I worry about becoming numb like I was when I made my attempt. Maybe it's just my anxiety speaking to me...