Dear AlwaysHeartache,
A bar examine compounded by a concussion sounds like the ultimate stresser. I hope you pass. Please let us know how it goes.
Is your username AlwaysHeartache because of your best friend? Even if you want more, the fact that she is your best friend means that you have been sharing a lot for years and at least have a great emotional connection. And I'm just wondering, why did you write her a goodbye? Will she be moving after she is married? She probably won't have as much time for you after she is married but could you both still be friends. I know people can love more than one person. Good friendships are hard to find. Does your friend not want you in her life?
If you don't want to answer these questions, I understand and I know you need to focus on your exam right now. It is such a good thing that you have had a best friend! Years from now, it WILL be a good memory regardless of what is happening now (I'm older than you).
Sincerely, Myst