I had another bad weekend. I am probably going to have to move now. I live in an assisted living facility right now. Well this last weekend one of the other residents put their hands around my neck and tryed to choke me. I wasn't doing anything out of the ordinary or anything like that. I didn't do anything to make her angry, we were just having a conversation. I have had problems with her yelling at me alot and things like that, but nothing like this. The police was called and she had to go to the hospital. I am actually now very scared and it was a llittle traumatic for me. I don't know, I just really am thinking I need to move out on my own now. If they allow her back, I'm gone. I dont want to ever see her again. I realize she has problems and all but still it was very scary for me.

Then I finally stood up to my mom about some things and told her I am going to be sharing some things about our family in therapy and about what has gone on. She did not seem happy and denied there was even anything that went on. But then I told her I am no longer going to keep secrets.

I started to fall apart again with my boyfriend again, I told him some things I have been afraid to tell him. I told him I am going to be unable to do anything for awhile because I need to take care of some of my issues, but I still wanted to be with him. I was so afraid he was going to break up with me, I still am. But I am feeling a little better about it.

Oh what a weekend, really though, it has been so hectic and scary.

Jennifer