Welcome! I was newly diagnosed a year ago. It's been quite a journey! Like you, I always saw someone during the really bad lows and was on antidepressants for years, and then I started having manic destructive episodes a few times a year. My family and I didn't know what was going on. Come to find out I'm Bipolar and the antidepressants were triggering mania. Ugh. It's been a journey working on the right cocktail of meds and trying to deal with the stigma that people (and I) have over the illness. I see a therapist once a week, and a pdoc once a month. I've been on a range of meds from Lithium, Depakote, and so on. Below in my signature is my current adjusted cocktail, we'll see if this keeps me stable. I wish you much luck! This is a great place!