im still pretty low. i dont know why it matters to post it here. i feel really pointless... my whole existence... is pointless. now im scaring people,..people are worried...my mom and T. and now my roommate bc hse asked me if i am OK, and i said ... no. and she said did i do something wrong? i said no its not you. she asked do i wanna talk about it. "no i dont want to talk about it". she left. iam a piece of ****