Hi River,

I'm sorry I didn't reply before. A lot of times depending on what is going on in my life at the time that I am checking in here, I see a long post and get overwhelmed and try to remember to come back to it but sometimes I can't.

I'm leary to reply and say what is on my mind because of what you said about the T: </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
........."do you have a sponsor?, how long have you been abstinent?, its a spiritual programme you know!..." well, I was amused, flabberghasted, insulted, and triggered! I'd never been spoken to like that before, it was like she stepped into authority over me, over my programme, the only thing I had in my life that I felt was truly, naturally mine. .....
I'd always done my programme for reasons inside myself, I've gone to many lengths, done service, conventions abroad, its no big deal, we do that in the programme, but never needing to be told by someone else, not in that way!

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But you asked for feedback so I'm gonna suggest Alanon. It sounds like you may be putting a lot of reliance on other people. The T was right when she said it is a spiritual program. While other people are very important for us, we must learn to rely on self and our higher power when people don't do what we want them to do. People are fallable, and will hurt us - if we let them. Especially here on the boards.....none of us found PC because we're well all the time. Everyone makes mistakes and sometimes posts go unanswered. A lot times I check in when I don't have a lot of time and I've got mod duties to look after too. I try and pay extra attention to this forum but there are just times when I don't have the energy to think, let alone come up with a good response. Right now I'm extremely tired so I don't even know if this made any sense.