Argh,

I haven't wanted to post this because I normally rant and rave when I'm in deep water and scared I'll never get out. But I know now you all here for me so I'm gonna lean on you if thats ok ?

I'm not dong so well....I've explored my depression and I know there is no Reason that I can see now for being depressed. But regardless I feel sad. I'm having what I think are panic/anxiety attacks and they aree hard on me. I've been in tears alot this weekend, feel alone when I'm really not. My best friend, and some online friends seem to be drifting,..whether they are or not I do not know.......

My "attacks" start with rapid thoughts that switch, I start thinking about old memories...or things that havent happened yet and fear they might. I then cry......alot.....I e-mailed my T but didnt get a response I'm not mad at all I know we've discueussed that before she can't always e-mail me back....well this evening before I was about to have another "attack" i acalled and e-mailed her...luckily I go to see her tomorrow......

I think I need to be put in a hospital.........

Dustin