River, I am sorry I missed your original post...I am generally pretty good about keeping tabs on this forum. Please, know that I care.

I am not an AA person, but I do work a recovery program. I consider my program to be...well, mine. I take suggestions from others but ultimately I consider it a very personal thing. I am not sure how I would respond to somebody putting them selves in an authority position over my program--probably indignant. I also think I need to be the center of my recovery--turning the reigns over to somebody else would be dangerous.

I think my disease would like it if i let somebody else become the center of my recovery because that would lead me down a dangerous road...possibly to a relapse.

Again, I am sorry I missed your original post. I am glad you reposted it and gave me the opportunity to comment and to show a little support. I would hope that all the people who come to this forum feel listened to and supported. Know that I care.