Well...I didn't take your advise MM.

I contacted him only to find out that being the difficulty of his transgendered life, he has shut off that portion of his life. He basically said that he has fond memories of me as well but isn't willing or able to have a relationship, whether plutonic or otherwise.

He kept saying my name in every response he'd give me. (IE: Sarah, I have fond memories of us too or Sarah, how are you? ) It just made me sad. Now I have a deeper longing and I know there is nothing I can do about it. I don't understand why I do such things. I didn't need this stress and I wouldn't have it if I hadn't contacted him.

Please someone tell me I'm not an idiot.