Riding out the urge.to SH, still very paranoid thoughts, can't get rid of them, still.hearing voices, idk if I can get my meds.refilled this week cause idk if Medicaid dropped my Dads insurance plan from their system, and my pharmacy can't do another override to.cover my meds through Medicaid, since Medicaid still thinks I have united as my primary insurance, but I was dropped from Untied and all my meds.were.covered under Medicaid anyways, and I don't have the money to pay for them out of pocket especially my AP (I'm on a high dose of, Abilify 20mg, if I have to stop withdrawal will suck), which is the more important one as it treats both my depression and hallucinations (mostly voices), ugh I think In screwed, going to try and call Medicaid tomorrow (if I don't forget) and see if the request they put in on July 8th went through or not. Idk at least I'm able to recognize my symptoms, but afraid of having to ride them out, well the hallucinations, I know I have to ride out the paranoid thinking, which sucks...ugh I'm so.screwed.

Sorry for the long post, my thinking is all over the place.tonight, took a couple of sleeping pills to calm me.down and hopefully knock me out...