Yes, I am moving in the right direction.

It's so crazy how my h caused me years of hysteria, refusing to give me what I kept telling him I needed, gas lighting me by pretending he didn't understand, acting every time like it was the first time he ever heard it. And now he's making me feel like a villain for leaving him to save myself.

When I'm done, I'm done. I am so turned off to him. Something shut off inside me.

But it's the craziest thing I don't understand about how just last month, we took a vacation with the kids and had a really good time with lots of passion. He acted passionately like I wanted him to and I loved it, but the minute we got home he was right back to neglect and I went to the moon and lost it.

Can I turn it off and on? I am scared of myself. I don't understand this.

I really did let myself feel good with him on the vacation. I wasn't faking it. And now I can't stand him.

Oh well, I am just trusting my feelings. I need to end the marriage. It's killing me.

I'm feeling fine here by myself. Taking it day to day.