I may only be 19 but I think I can make you feel a little better on this. What I have noticed is that the people who seem so perfect around people really aren't the same behind closed doors. It is amazing how people can put on such an act for such a long time. People are what you make out of them and when it comes down to it we are all human and nothing more. Men are very self absorbed, I happen to be one, maybe try getting into some of your husbands interests and letting him talk or having him come to therapy with you to understand you better as a person with feelings rather than a nagging lady who lives with him. Just get your spark back and I promise you will have many happy years together! Life is just a book and this is going to be a chapter that may not be pretty to read back on but it will all make sense toward the end.