Why is it a bad thing that your father said you look good?
Why does looking "good" mean being fat?
Does that mean you don't look good, or that you don't want to look good?

A lot of times I have to really look at what people say to me - and ONLY what they said. I usually add all sorts of stuff that they didn't really say. That's the stuff that makes me upset. All the things that I think they say that they didn't really say. And if they didn't say it, then they didn't say it, and I don't need to get upset.

I wish people couldn't see what I look like. I'm really fat right now from being depressed and some of my lovely meds...people tell me I look nice, and it's really hard to believe them because I KNOW what I look like. But then it's NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS!!!

IDK...All I know is that my thinking makes me upset more than what most people really say to me.