I just really want to feel better...just normal...I hardly remember how NORMAL feels like. I think last time I felt completely normal was in junior year of high school, I miss it. My life is getting more f-up each year as I am having a hard time with, well, basically everything. My manic episode or what I think was one did not help with getting my life in order, altough, I admit, I got really good grades during that semester - that's something...