What little I had has been shredded in the past week. Then I just got nuked by my boss about 20 minutes ago, and now I *REALLY* don't have any.

I have been at this job not quite a year and I think overall I've done pretty well. I've never missed a deadline -- come close, but always pulled through. Tonight I got assaulted for not being "resourceful." I don't think it's fair. I turn up my own story ideas all the time. But I also do what I'm told. I got told earlier in the afternoon to call two specific people. I did. One of them didn't call me back. It was suggested that I call someone at a school that offers a program in question. I did. I got an answering machine. I left a message.

The problem seems to be that I don't go beyond what I'm told. So when 6:00 rolled around and I hadn't heard from anyone I'd left messages for, it was my fault for not calling OTHER people.

My deadline really isn't until 10 or so. It's 7:05 right now. I left everybody and their brother my home phone number. i don't know what else I could have done.

Everything that could go wrong, went wrong last week. Not a bit of it was my fault (plenty of people said so). But I got blamed for it anyway.

My mental health has gone to hell over the past month and my boss has become less and less understanding about it. I don't know what to do. I usually have tons of confidence in my ability to do what I do, but that's disappeared and I don't know where to go or what to do next.