hey lighthouse

i do this too, i used to do it a lot more in the past.. i still re-read everything i write so much that i DO make mistakes and only notice them later after everyone reads... (im just trying to ignore it.. trying not to be perfect and stuff..)
but my brain is a mess so that doesnt help...
but having the barrier of the internet between me and everyone else seems to help me communicate - the anonymity??
and if something does happen i can just disapear for a while.. everyday lately i have posted things that make me want to go back and delete all of my posts but ... im trying to learn to be comfortable

i think practicing online for all these years has helped a little in "real life" but i don't talk about anything related to me or anything about me to other people in life... sometimes i go off and talk about some theory i have or something i read about the other day to one of my family but i rarely talk much at all.. unless im drunk
even then i dont talk much but whatever

talk to us?
i dont know how bad my symptoms are because i haven't been able to get around all the other illness i have going on... everything is clashing... but i will talk to you for sure - and you dont have to worry about saying anything wrong because you can say anything to me and i wont be bothered by it - if you need to vent or anything - im sure most everyone here would say the same thing i promise..