As most of you know I'm struggling with no contact for nearly 12 weeks.
I'm at the stage now where I'm reasoning? If that's the right way to put it?

T and I clicked straight away, it was almost like I knew her from somewhere...she seemed so familiar.
We became close, had a great relationship and I became too attached. We talked about my attachment and how I loved her. Platonically not erotically. (I found it difficult but she handled it extremely well).

One time I was talking about my attachment and she said to me very kindly "I'm not maternal."
That stung.
One comment that sticks out to me and always will is when I told her how the "I'm not maternal" comment was difficult to hear and she replied "it was difficult to say."

We often had out of session contact via text and email and I appreciate that. Sometimes it was trivial, other times it was important.

What I can't understand is how now that summer break is here my T can just cut me off so easily.
I understand she needs a good break to recharge etc. But her knowing how attached I was and cutting me off for nearly 3 months seems cruel.

Is my T being cruel to be kind to help get rid of my attachment? Or is she doing it because she got too emotionally involved?

I'm just throwing some ideas around in my head to help myself understand and I needed an outlet for these thoughts!



Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk