Uncertain if this is PTSD related. Lately my sleep been really horrible. The only way I know I slept is if I remember a dream. Its been so rough that I scarcely get 4 hrs sleep and that's if I'm lucky I lay in bed wide awake ruminating the trauma's I experienced. The emotional, verbal abuse of my mom, the way my dad was hardly there, my abusive boyfriends. Yes there's been some good intimate relationships with men. Currently in one now and I'm grateful. My issue now is staying awake , thinking of my emotional, physical PTSD related hurts and feeling a very deep dispair. I know its intrusive thoughts but they are making me feel so depressed. Sorry for being a downer.