Maybe one day it will all come together for me and make more sense. I must have been out of it during the last DBT session. I remember her wrapping it up and giving an assignment but I have no idea what she said. So I've called her and asked her to remind me.
Also a person sitting next to me ask me if I was okay at the end of class. She said my leg was jumping constantly and she noticed my rock that I hold in my hand to try to ground , she called it a worry stone. But my rock has lost it's ability to keep me grounded and not dissociate. I hate that I was distracting this person. I usually sit in a rocking type chair and can expend that nervous energy is a slow rock. But I came in late and had to sit in a regular chair.
It's funny that when I dissociate I don't feel like anyone can see me, but I guess they can.