Oh no! That's awful. I'm not surprised you are reacting the way you are based on that history. It must be frightening. I wish I could come over and get you out of there but it would take me at least 30 hours and $3000. lol.
Are there any meds you can take to get you to sleep so you can ride this out? Thinking of you.
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features
PTSD
"Phew! For a minute there I lost myself."
'Karma Police' by Radiohead