I have been seeing a new T for the last two weeks but am really struggling with coming to terms with not seeing the last T (who I had been seeing for a year). I feel like an emotional wreck and have been unable to shake off the despair.

Did you guys manage to get over your past Ts? Did you get in touch with them? Do sessions aimed at closure really bring closure?

Back Story: T suggested a couple of weeks ago that therapy with her approach is not working (after I refused to talk about my SI) and that I should think about her referring me to someone else. I had dreaded that moment for weeks but was desensitized to it enough that I had compartmentalized the thoughts/emotions and agreed to her suggestion halfheartedly. At the end of the session, she asked me to read a book, think about the session and get back to her with an answer after I had put more thought behind my decision.

The next day, I informed her that I was planning to meet a new T (and not the one she referred). Pdoc had referred the new T to me and my T did not think that seeing her would benefit me because I cannot afford to see new T 3x a week.