I'm not sure what I can do.

My husband and daughter moved five hours away.

My husband doesn't want me joining them until I'm stable. Whatever that means. He thinks six months until my commitment thing is over. But it could be longer I suppose. Depending on when I get stable.

Which really seems impossible right now.

I'm depressed. And if I fall back into old pattern, I'll be depressed for a few days and then get hypo/manic/mixed (depending. It was never the same before! I just spent the majority of my time in an up).

And I don't know what to do because meds don't seem to be helping very well. My husband wants me to call my case worker because I don't have my appointment with my new doctor until the eighth.

I'm just not really sure what these people can do for me. I don't have an appointment with my new counselor until the eighth.

So, really, this IS my home now. And, trust me I WANT to go home (as in where I lived before, which is never happening). I miss my family so much it's making me feel sick. And I haven't even been away for a full month yet.