I've been trying to get a new mood stabilizer that will hopefully work better, and then slowly wean myself off lamictal. But these people don't listen to me! They always just want to put me on an AP! I don't feel comfortable being on an AP.

I explained this to two different doctors, and they just put me on an AP anyway!

And now I CAN'T stop taking it because it was an injection. I want the ****ing pills so I don't have to stay on it. (I know that's bad.)

So I don't know what this new person is going to do. They can do whatever they ****ing want. They could put me on something I don't want to be on, and I'd have to go on it, or get thrown in the psych ward and stay there indefinitely until I go on it.