I see my new therapist on the eighth. I would rather do reality testing, yes.

I'm hoping I can negotiate/bargain with this new person. I managed some negotiation with the doctor I had inpatient, while deemed completely incompetent. He wanted to put me on 7mg of haldol. I was like, hell no! The stuff gives me akathisia really bad, even with high cogentin doses. So I convinced him to put me on a smaller dose. And then I tried to negotiate the injection thing because I want to be on the pills instead and don't feel comfortable having a shot of AP. But he said no because he thought I wouldn't stay on the pills.

It's just I've been deemed completely incompetent and lacking of insight now (which makes me mad. Again, not that bad, and I think I can decide what meds I want to be on and what I don't want to be on. For ****'s sake. I'm not a complete moron), so I don't know what this new guy is going to do.

I had to get evaluated by these two pdocs. The first one just said he was recommending the six month thing. And the second one actually called my husband and talked to him about whether or not I've been med compliant. And the first one wrote down in his notes that I embellish side effects because that's what my ***** pdoc who took me off of clonazepam in two months must have put in her notes about me.

****ing fantastic.