I think this can be OK but I want to write it out and welcome any feedback.

Yesterday I got up before 6, was at work by 630 (8 is normal), and created a whole new policy and procedure on something. What I wrote was kind of awesome. Very articulate, detailed, etc. It's a formal policy now and I did it in less than a day, like in a few hours. I ended up doing a 10 hour day (6-8 is normal). I made my friend spit out her drink because I said something so funny during work. I was on a roll. I had a friend over last night and I talked most of the time and we had a great time. I was fun to be around yesterday. I also went too up too fast. I did take extra half mg risperdal last night. I slept about 8 hours. I felt kind of fogged today, not terribly but more and more as the day goes on. I feel exhausted in the last hour. I got to go in late and I left early. There were only a few things to do that were important today so I think it's fine. I do feel flat but at the same time since I've got home a few hours ago I had a lottery moment and realized a new layer to add that I hadn't before. It's actually two-fold. I can not do it, I didn't, etc. But the moment was there. The ah'ha moment. Earlier I also had some paranoia about some things but I'm not going to go into that. I also have been very hypersexual this evening while also exhausted but with having a huge wave of sexual energy. I am going to go to bed by 9 and sleep till 7 or more. It's like half of me is running a mile a minute, and the other half is frozen and slowed. It's weird. I did have a scheduled therapy session today and am doing weekly right now, it was good and helpful. We talked about these things and said it'll pass by tomorrow and be OK. I think it will though will acknowledge in the last few hours I've more progressively more disconnected overall. I really really should not be this tired. I slept plenty last night, even if I didn't enough the night before. And then there's the sexual energy part.

I really would like to do the lottery thing I know I can't though. And it doesn't matter because when I eventually do go back to it with healthy boundaries I will still have the insight I had from today.

I do hope tomorrow this is gone. It will be OK. Sleep heals many things. I should not feel this tired though but my mind is racing and I wouldn't lay down right now. I can take meds soon and then within an hour I'll be out.