Does anyonelse struggle with letting go of the past.. i keep ruminatng over the loss of close friendship i had with someone and things were better that it ended but... i wasn't happy how things ended so i guess i keep ruminating over that.

Doors are completey closed so i can't even express how i am feeling...but i am feeling it in my head and my shoulders. i wake up feeling tense... i have started doing mindfulness mediation and affirmations in the head but i am a very impatient person and these kinda of things take time to feel real effects.

anyways this is just making me an unhappy person... i just want peace of mind.

thanks if you read this far.