Oh Dec, I'm so sorry for you and your family. I would certainly expect you to want to protect your family. You are a good dad.
Because of our depression we (you and I) blow up, reacting with anger to situations that attack our family. If one more person says "cooler heads will prevail"......well things won't be pretty. When we do calm down then the guilt and sadness move in. It dosen't ever seem to change.
You are a loving and caring dad. Your family means the world to you. Enjoy them while you can. All to soon your daughter will be out on her own. Savor your together time while you can.
(((((((((( therealme and family ))))))))))