This is really hard. And i actually don't have POCD (pedophilic - OCD) while working - that much, but in my free time I am stressed and have had several days that just went by in panic/stress/anxiety because of being afraid I was a pedophile. I don't get turned on sexually by kids, but this thought has been haunting me (penetratning thoughts), and visualization has been very grim. I do realize, now that I have read on the internet about this diagnose that it is my brain spooking and that several other people have tried this.. and this really gives me relief - and i tell myself i have POCD rather than being afraid of it. I am not either afraid of approaching kids, but kids are very good at triggering my POCD still.
I have to add that I have been isolated with my work from prior social contacts for a year soon and have had WAY TOO MUCH TIME to think and be a bit down because of a prior girlfriend - I realize getting home to safe harbours with parents and friends helps me hugely and i am soon moving home. But the 2 months i still have to work in this remote place are tough for me.
I try to do a lot of things to keep my mind of stupid thoughts, but it doesn't always help, and working night-shifts is killing me as well as my anxiety seems to come easier when tired.. which i am for a couple of days after every night shift.
Adding to this I have some salivatory problem with the production of too much saliva with i think is correlated to my stress/anxiety - maybe the fight or flight response.. (but that should be the opposite? - dry mouth?)

I know this will get better as some point, but I am getting kind of tired of my anxiety/stress/POCD/salivatory problem.

ahhhhh.. drool..

.. anyone recognize this situation? any other mind games to get out of drooling and anxiousness - not taking medication and will not try btw.. i am a doctor.. i have seen the list of side effects