i Fd up and texted my T too much one night. he basically said it was too much. i said im sorry. he said its ok and he understands that i am struggling right now. that hes not mad and he does care. i cried a lot that night. but i had to wait til i went to bed to do it BC i was at my mom's house. he keeps saying that its understandable bc i am struggling a lot right now. i feel guilty and bad for doing it, and stupid, and embarrassed. i am going to back off from the texting. i know hell want to discuss it but i dont. cant we just like pretend it never happened and i wont do it again? lol.... avoiding things--- my number 1 skill. he told me it isnt a big deal but it feels like one to me. i guess i took it as a rejection. anyway, we have a game night tonight. i want to go but im nervous. i will probably go... but feel shy and reserved and timid around him.