I do the same. Always have.

Also same situation here, well one of the ones ruminate about anyway.

Close friend, more like family, pulled away and then outright started ignoring me and my family. Doors closed as well, i think.

There are times where i can't stop with the what ifs and should haves. I get angry sad frustrated depressed. Then it goes in the back of my head for a bit and something else comes up. I have begged for help with this. It brings me so much distress.

I truly understand