My Pdoc died of a heart attack. I was sent to my general practitioner. I feel like I made the wrong decision going there, but now the clinic where I used to go has a new Pdoc and a waiting list unless I'm in some kind of urgent crisis. Thankfully, I'm not. My therapist also moved out of town. My GP had bipolar written on my charts, so I mentioned that it was changed to schizoaffective. Now it's listed as schizoaffective, bipolar type, and I didn't correct it. It's supposed to be unspecified type. I only know this because I looked up the diagnosis code on my papers. I had to ask my Pdoc. He never told me. If I ever went back to that clinic I could just tell them I had whatever I wanted and they'd probably put it down. I'm feeling like it doesn't even matter anymore what the label is. I'd like to just erase the whole thing. But I also feel like I have a lack of a safety net now and I worry about the future. The system is a mess.