Thank you, Skeezyks. It's hard not feeling selfish because i don't have a lot to give right now. Other than listening when he does open up. I am feeling so overwhelmed. When I'm in depression I typically wear my "depression mask" when dealing with co-workers, my son and a few others. But I've always been able to count on my fiancee to accept me and see me as the quivering ball of dark, hopeless sadness balled up under the covers. However, under the circumstances I'm doing my best to hide my current condition. Note, he's out of state right now, helping out his dad with some loose ends since his mom passed. That makes it easier to hide the extent of things here. But, I feel dishonest and I also feel selfish for even considering adding to his worries. I don't think I can keep up the facade once he gets back home