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Originally Posted by PsychNitrous
My biggest concern with house sitting is that I will be alone. It's a much longer drive than from my apartment for my bf to get to work, so he can't really stay with me on work nights. And I haven't been alone at night in months, not since my depression started getting worse.
I have benzos, but they're losing their effectiveness. I know it wasn't the best idea, but I took a whole 2mg last night to fight off a panic attack and barely felt any better.
I've been working on getting in with a new therapist and pdoc, but it's been such a slow process. Next week is my second appointment with the therapist, first was a month ago. I think after next week I can schedule an appointment with the pdoc there, but I don't expect that will be anytime soon.
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It sounds like this is really bad timing to have to house sit. Did the people whose house it is give you an emergency contact like a next door neighbor? If necessary you could call them for help, just to feed the cats and provide fresh water for them. You could tell your friends whose house it is that you felt like you were coming down with something like a flu. Or, if they know about your mh issues, just be honest about not feeling well enough to get through the time there.
And yes, having the upped dosage of benzo feel like it's not helping isn't a good sign.
If possible, I'd start tapering down, to get off of it. Just because you might find they give you a higher dose and then someone pulls the rug out, by refusing to prescribe and you end up hopelessly hooked with no help for it.